I can relate to so many aspects of all you share in such different ways. I remember all the times I felt like a shadow of my former self. My then partner couldn’t handle me saying such words so I felt silenced. Yet it’s how I truly felt and connecting to how I truly feel, what is true for me and being able to express how I feel has been my gateway to health improvement.
I also didn’t believe in past lives. I kept open to it because my health was my priority no matter what and that meant no more shutting down. This year has been a big one for past life healing for me. Healing is (on the whole) much more gentle for me this year than the brutal times of the many past. Voicing my past life healing in here left me with a big vulnerability hangover. I thought I’d see a lot of unsubscribes. But I also realised if I’m not truthful about what got me here, then I’m not serving anyone.
And now I’m too tired to remember what else I wanted to say 😆 so I’ll leave it there. Missing you and all your wisdom at healing through writing 💜
Oh, that’s it! Your last bit about Buddhism holding you in the last 19 months. I simply don’t know how I would have got through the pandemic without all the deep healing I’d done in the year or 2 before. It felt like all that practice was my training for the endurance of losing my income again for a second time and pretty much on my own the entire first lockdown. I ramped up all my practices and received healing to my brain multiple times. I went into a massive relapse for the second lockdown. But I hear so many stories of others not being able to recover from a virus or a relapse (I later got Covid at the end of a second relapse and dark night of the soul plus depression) and I thank my lucky stars for the difference I believe this made💙
Yes missing you and your group too - this month has been hectic to say least! Finally things getting back to normal just in time for Xmas oddness.
I’m finding that being able to write like this is so cathartic and a sense of achievement from making sense of all the swirling thoughts into creative pieces.
It is hard to connect with those that haven’t been through similar experiences - I now appreciate more all the people I have known who have had long term chronic illnesses and the battles faced with sense of self so hear you with that.
Hugs to you and hope to see you tomorrow or in the new year when back from meditation retreat - I has plans and your Monday morning sessions are a fantastic way to start each week.
Thank you for this piece - it is beautifully written and so thought-provoking. Living now with chronic illness, I do sometimes find myself wishing I could travel back to a younger self, but in reading your writing I realise that I wouldn’t actually want to do that! It is interesting to consider what ‘me’ is - lots to think about x
Grieving ghosts of yourself is such a poetic way of writing what I have gone through. Past and future imagined selves. Lovely to read you today 💚
Thank you for your description of poetic - smiling at that 💜
I’m glad to give you a smile this Sunday 💚
I can relate to so many aspects of all you share in such different ways. I remember all the times I felt like a shadow of my former self. My then partner couldn’t handle me saying such words so I felt silenced. Yet it’s how I truly felt and connecting to how I truly feel, what is true for me and being able to express how I feel has been my gateway to health improvement.
I also didn’t believe in past lives. I kept open to it because my health was my priority no matter what and that meant no more shutting down. This year has been a big one for past life healing for me. Healing is (on the whole) much more gentle for me this year than the brutal times of the many past. Voicing my past life healing in here left me with a big vulnerability hangover. I thought I’d see a lot of unsubscribes. But I also realised if I’m not truthful about what got me here, then I’m not serving anyone.
And now I’m too tired to remember what else I wanted to say 😆 so I’ll leave it there. Missing you and all your wisdom at healing through writing 💜
Oh, that’s it! Your last bit about Buddhism holding you in the last 19 months. I simply don’t know how I would have got through the pandemic without all the deep healing I’d done in the year or 2 before. It felt like all that practice was my training for the endurance of losing my income again for a second time and pretty much on my own the entire first lockdown. I ramped up all my practices and received healing to my brain multiple times. I went into a massive relapse for the second lockdown. But I hear so many stories of others not being able to recover from a virus or a relapse (I later got Covid at the end of a second relapse and dark night of the soul plus depression) and I thank my lucky stars for the difference I believe this made💙
Yes missing you and your group too - this month has been hectic to say least! Finally things getting back to normal just in time for Xmas oddness.
I’m finding that being able to write like this is so cathartic and a sense of achievement from making sense of all the swirling thoughts into creative pieces.
It is hard to connect with those that haven’t been through similar experiences - I now appreciate more all the people I have known who have had long term chronic illnesses and the battles faced with sense of self so hear you with that.
Hugs to you and hope to see you tomorrow or in the new year when back from meditation retreat - I has plans and your Monday morning sessions are a fantastic way to start each week.
beautiful and resonant with many things i’ve been thinking about and feeling lately
Glad it resonates. Appreciate you letting me know 💜
Thank you for this piece - it is beautifully written and so thought-provoking. Living now with chronic illness, I do sometimes find myself wishing I could travel back to a younger self, but in reading your writing I realise that I wouldn’t actually want to do that! It is interesting to consider what ‘me’ is - lots to think about x