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Very beautifully said. I went through a period of grief right before my hysterectomy. It caught me off guard. I'd spent so long resenting what that part of my body meant or how it treated me, and suddenly I felt sad letting it go. Mine did deliver two amazing babies into the world, but I struggled with what that meant I was as a parent and as a human. It's taken me a lot of work to reconcile those feelings, and I'm far from done.

Wishing you healing and peaceful feelings as you go through this process.

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Thank you for letting me know how this affected you. There is so much emotion around this operation that is not mentioned in the forums on social media. Made me want to share. The healing physically and emotionally are going well - just needing to be gentle with myself.

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Thank you for sharing Elly. I love that you have picked up that contradiction. I think it is so important.

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Yes emotions often do not make sense and are contradictory. I think we try to logic them away so much it can be harmful. Emotions are not logical.

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They are felt things. They can’t be logicced. I’m rummaging about looking for a poem you have reminded me of. I think that to be aware of the apparent contradiction is to have stepped off of the polarity making machine.

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So beautifully written. I haven't suffered a hysterectomy but your description of the multitude of conflicting feelings about your situation ring so true to me in other ways. Thank you for sharing so heartfully. I hope with time you'll be able to feel better now once the grief of loosing part of you has subsided.

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Yes I find writing helps me structure all the whirlwind of emotions which helps me process them. I’m glad some of what I described resonated with you and hope it helps 💜

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Absolutely. I try and journal most days now. It really does help. It's somewhere to vent the frustrations and upset and to see them for what they are, to not allow them to drag us down. It did help Elly, thank you for sharing x

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Thank you for sharing your incredible story. All the hormone shifts throughout our lifetime and the struggles that causes us is so hard.

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Oh yes! Hormones are the hidden problem so much of the time it seems. Causes so many issues for us all and we dont realise and not often monitored as challenging to do so.

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Yes we’re a big old bag of contradictions. This is a beautiful piece of writing. Thanks for sharing your story. I too decided not to be a mother because of the parenting I’d received. I know now that I wouldn’t have been as bad at it as I’d assumed I would. But I don’t have any regrets at remaining child free. I’m glad I did for many multi-layered reasons.

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Thankyou for sharing. We are complex creatures and many of our decisions are so multi-layered. No regrets here ultimately, yet allowing the feelings to flow even if contradictory has been healing.

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Thank you for sharing this vulnerable and honest piece with all, no probably just some of its complexities and contradictions.

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